Ouch :"eat good food, drink your water and get your rest. "
I'll repeat that : ouch.
Sometimes even fluttering seems to difficult ... feet seem to be glued to the ground and flying seems so far away ... but I won't give up lol :) I know flylady can help me ... I just have to give it time and take the bad days along with the good.
So lets try to get chaos out of here 15minutes of loving roomblessings at a time ... giving myself 15minutes of loving rest after each session ...!
Eat good? I really try to! Drinking lots of water. I try to eat lots of veggies, make sure to use healthy fats, eat whole grains almost all the time ... But sweets are my downfall grr ... I so much love my sweets and fats ... s long as I don't have to bake for guests or have to go out for meals I'm OK ... I need a talk with Princessy about the binging ... cause it really feels awful ... So I baked myself some low fat low sugar muffins and Princessy: You still deserve sweets, but hey one serving is enough and if you stick to it one month, we get to make a whole fat whole sugar desert of choice ... what do you think!
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Day 27
Feeling very overwhelmed lately. I want so much! And time ... well our friendship is hitting a rough patch ... I would love a time out for a week or so, just me somewhere nice and quiet, no responsibilities, just me and my confused thoughts to organise and clean up. But that seems unattainable right now. And, :) , I'm hearing Flylady in the back of my head ... babysteps ... get your routine rocking and time will free up ... I see the path ... just have to jump back on! And I will.
So that's one negative voice turned around. Then there are the paenting issues. Kids are sleeping in the same room ... which never caused problems until DS2 1/2 found out how to climb out of bed and showed DD4 how to parteeeee! Ok, at first I thought: Oh well, after a day or two they will get tired and get back to their old sleeping habits .... yeah right .... they did get tired and grumpy, and mom and dad got tired and grumpy, but no sleeping before late in the evening ... I was trying to fall asleep before them on the worst days. So keep doing nothing turned out to be a big no no. So DH and I decided to pretend sleeping in there room until they fell asleep, we would take turns so that one of us could clean up after dinner in the mean while. First problem, although DD fell asleep very easily now, DS had trouble giving up on his party rhythm. Second problem, DH is associated with "FUN TIME wheeeeeeeeee" so no falling asleep when he stayed there nor for DD nor for DS. Third problem, the second problem caused DH so much stress that it ruined the whole evening for the two of us. Result I'm staying there every night sometimes till it's time for me to start counting sheep ... Very frustrating seeing my me-time vanish day after day ... so I started staying up a bit later ... so I started becoming more tired and grumpy ... and we know what a negative cycle starts then ... But now the turn for the positive. Kids are starting to forget the late night parties ... I feel that I will be soon able to start moving my way out of there bedroom ... it's just one of those parenting challenges... OK a part that asks lots of energy ... but all parents know ... we get enough in return :)) and it will pass ... we will find a new balance ...
And then there is the housework ... well I decided to add on some hours of extra help from the cleaning lady ... I feel like I'm failing myself and my family by not managing on my own, but my recovery from cancer, the hospital visits, my new views and expectations on life ... well I can't fit them in in my planning. On top of that I'm starting to work again in September ... I want to brush up a bit and start prepared which will take time too ... so I hope that I will learn to accept this and know that when my body and mind are ready to take on more, I can always cut back on the hours of help. I hope to learn to see this help as a blessing for me, to help me go my path, not as a failure. I will have challenges enough to bless my home, in finding routines that suit our family, decluttering and organising, making nutritious meals, spending fun time with DH and my kids ...
So lets jump!
Day 28 What's for dinner? We eat "dinner" at "lunch".Well when to think about that one? I must say I put a lot of time and effort in our meals. I bake bread every two weeks, make sure there is homemade soup with lots and lots of vegetables every day, we try to eat lots of vegetables with all meals, raw and cooked. We eat lots of fruits. Try to cut down on sugar. But is there a plan? Well I make sure that I have lots of frozen vegetables, meat and fish ... and mostly I decide an hour or so in advance what to make, some days are prepared in advance like when I buy a non frozen chicken, or fresh vegetables that perish easily. And on very good days I have plans for easy meals on the more challenging days when I don't have the luxury of time. So that has been my plan till recently. Lets try to fly a bit higher by planning ahead one day at least ... and lets think about it after breakfast, just before I finish up my MR.
So that's one negative voice turned around. Then there are the paenting issues. Kids are sleeping in the same room ... which never caused problems until DS2 1/2 found out how to climb out of bed and showed DD4 how to parteeeee! Ok, at first I thought: Oh well, after a day or two they will get tired and get back to their old sleeping habits .... yeah right .... they did get tired and grumpy, and mom and dad got tired and grumpy, but no sleeping before late in the evening ... I was trying to fall asleep before them on the worst days. So keep doing nothing turned out to be a big no no. So DH and I decided to pretend sleeping in there room until they fell asleep, we would take turns so that one of us could clean up after dinner in the mean while. First problem, although DD fell asleep very easily now, DS had trouble giving up on his party rhythm. Second problem, DH is associated with "FUN TIME wheeeeeeeeee" so no falling asleep when he stayed there nor for DD nor for DS. Third problem, the second problem caused DH so much stress that it ruined the whole evening for the two of us. Result I'm staying there every night sometimes till it's time for me to start counting sheep ... Very frustrating seeing my me-time vanish day after day ... so I started staying up a bit later ... so I started becoming more tired and grumpy ... and we know what a negative cycle starts then ... But now the turn for the positive. Kids are starting to forget the late night parties ... I feel that I will be soon able to start moving my way out of there bedroom ... it's just one of those parenting challenges... OK a part that asks lots of energy ... but all parents know ... we get enough in return :)) and it will pass ... we will find a new balance ...
And then there is the housework ... well I decided to add on some hours of extra help from the cleaning lady ... I feel like I'm failing myself and my family by not managing on my own, but my recovery from cancer, the hospital visits, my new views and expectations on life ... well I can't fit them in in my planning. On top of that I'm starting to work again in September ... I want to brush up a bit and start prepared which will take time too ... so I hope that I will learn to accept this and know that when my body and mind are ready to take on more, I can always cut back on the hours of help. I hope to learn to see this help as a blessing for me, to help me go my path, not as a failure. I will have challenges enough to bless my home, in finding routines that suit our family, decluttering and organising, making nutritious meals, spending fun time with DH and my kids ...
So lets jump!
Day 28 What's for dinner? We eat "dinner" at "lunch".Well when to think about that one? I must say I put a lot of time and effort in our meals. I bake bread every two weeks, make sure there is homemade soup with lots and lots of vegetables every day, we try to eat lots of vegetables with all meals, raw and cooked. We eat lots of fruits. Try to cut down on sugar. But is there a plan? Well I make sure that I have lots of frozen vegetables, meat and fish ... and mostly I decide an hour or so in advance what to make, some days are prepared in advance like when I buy a non frozen chicken, or fresh vegetables that perish easily. And on very good days I have plans for easy meals on the more challenging days when I don't have the luxury of time. So that has been my plan till recently. Lets try to fly a bit higher by planning ahead one day at least ... and lets think about it after breakfast, just before I finish up my MR.
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